Friday, July 16, 2004
today, went out wif my sec sch friends.. i enjoy every second wif them.. however a little disappointing.. jerm got to leave so early.. but then i wun blame u lah.. haha.. i get to tok alot of my real feelings to my gd buddies.. however found out tat they also being bothered by somethings.. haiz.. wads life?? might as well end it!!
life's really meaningless.. at least for me.. i jus feel so bothered.. by.. relationships, friends, family, studies... all... everything.. i really dunno how to handle it myself.. now i finally know why adults like to have beer when they are down( when beer taste so sickening) making yourself drunk is really the way to solve problems(at least for that day) u wun feel so miserable.. i shall have 2 cans ba.. later..
today, my chem teacher told us.. life is like an atom, and we are all like electrons.. this do make sense.. think..? i do really figure something out of it.. do you?
i think i am those who have no objectives in life lol.. honestly speaking.. i really wonder what to do tmr?? 24 hours and i'm going to waste it again.. i will probably do wad i did for the past few sat.. go buy a piece of newspaper and go amk library to read it.. should be able to take up at least 2 hours ba..
currently, i am really beng bothered by some friendship problems lol.. really.. although i dun believe in ever-lasting friendship, however, i wish to prove that i am wrong.. i try to treasure every friend i hav made and also try to giv them a call or msg them so tat we wun forget each other.. however, i think i am wrong.. coz the more u contact them, the more conflict might happen thru the conversation.. so... i think i should leave my friends for a short period of time ba.. maybe that will be a test for our friendship, as well as i period of time for us to miss each other..
i'm tired.. but i dun feel like sleeping.. coz when ever i lie down on the bed, i will think of her( can say to be my dream gal ba.. or in actual fact, me myself also dunno) dunno wad to say.. i think i start to be far from myself liao.. i begin not to understand myself liao.. or.. did i ever understand myself??
posted @ 9:47 PM
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